Momma's just have that feeling!!!!

My baby girl has been sick for 2 weeks now! As of yesterday she has maybe been to school 2 days in the past 2 weeks, I have sent her to school but she always gets sent home. If you know my child you would know she LOVES school and don't like to miss what so ever so for her to go to the nurse and get sent home means she is sick. I took her to the Dr and they tested her for strep which she didn't have so he went ahead and gave her antibiotics because her ear was starting to look infected. OK no problem go back to school the next day..................wrong she got sent back home because she was so tired she couldn't stay awake in class. So Saturday comes and she don't even want to play in her basketball game and again if you know my child you would know she is a sports nut loves any of them. When she would get in the game she said she would feel all weak and like jello so she wanted out of the game. So Monday I had to take brann to Tulsa to see his workers comp Dr and she slept the whole way there and back didn't wake up to eat or pee. So I call the Dr and they got her in Tuesday and he said her ear looked worse instead of better and tested her for the flu which was neg and gave her a diff antibiotic. I kept her home one more day so Thursday she went back to school and got sent home again she is now getting dizzy. great what am I going to do to keep this child up to par with the rest of the class? I let her stay home Friday and figure if she stays home and rest then she'll be ready for the game Saturday.............wrong again she had used her inhaler 3 times in the first half of the game which she should only use 2 every 30 mins. Monday was a teacher work day so more rest for Kayla. Tuesday I send her back to school and guess what I get a phone call before lunch Kayla is so dizzy that she almost passed out on the nurse so back to the Dr we go. Remember she has tested neg for step and the flu. The Dr orders a bunch of test that requires blood drawn so we get that done and go home and wait for the call. We know the lab tech in our Dr office cause Kayla is friends with her daughter so before we left she told us Kayla had blood in her urine. Then later on that night she text me saying that the mono test they did came back neg. Brann my lovely husband is so impatient that he has called the Dr office 100 times just to find out about our baby girl. Finally thank goodness we know someone in the Dr office that she finally called and told us a few things like her liver enzymes were slightly elevated and there were a few abnormalities but nothing to be concerned about but still wait for the Dr to call. So finally the Dr called and said that everything was fine and the antibiotics should do the trick but if she don't show any signs of getting better by Monday bring her back for more tests. My baby girl is so darn tired she is in bed by 6pm which her bed time is 9pm. her face is pale, she has no appetite, getting dizzy and feeling faint,and feeling really weak who knows what it is but I pray that it goes away. I know that something is wrong with my baby but I can't help her. You can just look at her and tell something is wrong with her the dr even said that. I feel so bad for her.

Hope Renae has arrived!!!!!!!

So most of you know about my brother in law that had a little boy pass away Next month it will be the 1 yr mark. So anyways Christmas time in 07 he got "fixed" and they were done having kids until there little boy passed. So he and his wife decided to have it reversed so back in may last year they went to the dr for a check up and the dr said he wasn't even close to the half way mark to begin trying to have a child so he said come back in 6 months and I bet then you can start trying to get pregnant well a couple weeks later they found out they were pregnant!!!!!!!!!!! YAY. So this past nine months have been an emotional roller coaster for them and as of Jan 21,09 they now have a precious baby girl they named Hope Renae Oden. They are still on that very emotional roller coaster so please keep them in your prayers. I will post pictures as soon as I can .

Just as I get comfortable

...............all heck breaks loose!!!! Photography going good, kids, hubby and life in general going great but I guess I got too comfortable. Now I have this person from high school saying I'm coping her and trying to be just like her with the photography and all these other things just because MY HUSBAND not me made me a web site at the same host site as she has. I haven't seen her since high school and only talked to her through myspace once or twice that's it. So anyways it discouraged me and had me rethinking this whole photography thing. I finally got over that cause you know what that host site is there for a reason ...........hello it's for people to use right??? And I'm doing this for me and myself who cares if i make any money at it I'm enjoying every minute of it. OK we got past that and then Mikayla poor mikayla got sent home from school last Thursday due to a sore throat, well strep is going around really bad so we go to the Dr and he says she's fine other than an ear infection so medicine here we come. Saturday comes and she has a ball game we go and she don't play but maybe 2 mins the whole game. She uses her inhaler like 3 times which isn't normal for her then she tells her coaches that she feels really week and feels as if her legs are going to collapse so she sits out the rest of the game and slept the whole way home and went back to bed when we got there. Anyways Monday we didn't send her to school but we had to take brann to Tulsa to see the workers comp Dr and Kayla slept the whole freaking trip there and back. So my baby isn't eating and all she wants to do is sleep . We take her back to the Dr Tuesday and he test her for the flu and strep both negative. Well the lab tech is a team players mom and we talked and she said she figured something was wrong with Kayla cause she wasn't playing in the game which the child never comes out unless they are trying to make sure everyone gets the same playing time. So we left the Dr without an answer other than her is is looking better. Then yesterday Brann calls me and says well the base called me today! I'm thinking what for. Well they got an opening for some classes he has to take and guess what out of like 12 people that need the same classes they call my hubby and tell him to be ready to leave next month. He's only going to Texas but that's 5 hours away and it's for 2 whole months. we can go down there but who wants to drive with 3 kids for 5 hours NOT ME!!!!!!!! He says he'll try to get a weekend pass but those are hard to come by. Ladies remember to not get too comfortable with life as you see it cause there will always be a curve ball when you least expect it. I know I got to comfortable with my life and then all chaos broke loose. Now I'm having to readjust my life to the circumstances.

Amazing simply Amazing!!!!!!!

So let me tell you about something amazing. When I was a little girl my grandma always left her nativity scene up year round but baby JESUS was removable so all year the manger would lay there empty then Christmas morning he would be in the manger. I so wanted a nativity scene where baby JESUS was removable but if you have really looked at them now days he is glued in the manger. I searched and searched but couldn't find one like my grandma's. A day or two after Christmas a few years ago I had found a broken one where Baby JESUS was broke out of the manger and a few other pieces were broke but I didn't care cause JESUS and the manger were salvageable so the following year I had replaced the pieces that were broke. I then carried on my grandma's tradition. Every year I would wrap Baby Jesus up in tissue paper and pack him up with the Christmas stuff and do as my grandma did. Well this year was different cause when I unpacked my decorations Baby JESUS was no were to be found. I told only one friend and her response was you better find him. So Christmas came this year and Baby JESUS was no where to be found so I thought I stood up on the fireplace to get the kids stockings down and low and behold Baby JESUS was laying in the manger right where he belonged. I turned and looked at Brann and said Thank you babe for finding baby Jesus and putting him in the manger. He had this look of cluelessness (making up my own word) on his face and said I didn't do it so we turn to the girls and ask them if they did it and they sure didn't do it. Christ will always be part of our Christmas even if there is or isn't Baby Jesus in the manger. I welled up with tears I was simply amazed.

WEEK FROM HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honestly when do us moms get a break? I have been going through a real rough time lately. I honestly feel as if I'm going to have a nervous break down. It seems as if OUR JOB is NEVER done it's always something. I have had a week from HELL............. Sunday I just realized I scheduled Katie's bday party on the same day and time as the van buren Christmas parade so I had to go and get More invites cause you know half of the kids wont show do to the parade and half her friends being in girls scouts which they walk in the parade every year. WOW I don't even remember Monday as if it never even happened, Tuesday Chasyn was into every thing and I mean every thing he even climbed up his daddy's Big Chest of drawers and pulled it over on top of him. I was so freak out thinking he was really hurt but turned out the Good Lord above protected him and he only had a scrap and a bruise, Wednesday My Church class had been pinging off the walls which normally they are a great group of girls (4th-6th) We have been practicing for our Christmas program and they just went crazy finally I had to yell at them to get them to listen they had no clue what was going on cause I had never yelled before also all night Katie kept crying over little things I thought but to her they were mountains. Thursday took Chasyn to the Dr. the poor kid has gotten no sleep since Monday night we sat in the waiting room for an hour then we sat back in the room for a half hour his apt was at 9:15 am and we ended up leaving like at 11:45 come to find out he has bronchitis yeah the crankiness is only going to get worse then tried to get some shopping done but didn't happen they girls were begging for everything in sight and Chasyn my little monkey from Tuesday kept climbing in and out of the cart......yay what fun that was. Then today Chasyn was up at the butt crack of dawn and was cranky I was dealing with chasyn so much I forgot to tell Brann happy birthday before he left out for work. Got the girls to school with chasyn SCREAMING AND CRYING the whole way Thank the lord it's only less than a mile it might not even be 1/4 of a mile what do you think Christina? Then the little rug rat lost my freaking phone and I didn't even know it when I found it I had like 25 missed calls great how many of those people think I was ignoring them? I pick the kids up from school we head to town to get the stuff to make daddy and the ball team cup cakes I get everything and head back to cedarville then I had to bake with a 2 yr old attached to my leg the whole time. Finally we get the cup cakes done and head to practice I really needed to get some things done so that I could be ready for the basketball team pics I'm going to be taking in the next few weeks but no I couldn't get that done Chasyn was bothering the other kids and one of them let me know how much he was bothering him and he wasn't nice about it at all I shouldn't have been shocked I've had run in with this child and his parents before and so has other parents and children so I know it wasn't just my child. I dealt with it as long as I could before I said something I would have regretted. I picked Chasyn up and told him to leave them alone and let them play but do you really expect a 2 yr old to understand that other kids don't want him around. One of the moms of one of the other kids went and got some toys for Chasyn to play with but by that time I had enough and was heading to the car with him. She tried so hard to help but I just wanted to get out of there I was at my wits end with him. I appreciated her trying to help and I forgot to tell her that and I hope she knows that. Finally I calmed down and decided to head in when that same little boy along with his friends and my daughter came outside and said we're done playing so bring Chasyn back inside. I was hit wrong by that it seemed like he was giving me permission to come back in the gym. I know he is only a child but it just hit me wrong so I just sat there and waited on my kids to come out with a friend. My friend that tried to help with chasyn came out and talked to me and she told her son not to bring they toys again I told her honestly I was never told by her son that my son was bothering them and I know this family good enough that this child would come to me or his mom and say something So then I felt bad because he got in trouble because I just left instead of dealing with the one child and parent that needed it. And on top of things Brann never showed up to practice after all that hard work on the cup cakes he never showed up. I believe I have rambled on way to much and I know the grammar in this is horrible so please over look it.

Please tell me it's not just me!!!!

I think I might be losing my mind!!! This past weekend my kids decided that they were going to be heathens so in turn they missed Kayla's best friends bday party. Brann left out to go deer hunting ok no problem but the kids all of a sudden wouldn't listen. I was at my wits end with them I kept threatening "We won't go to Hanna's bday party" but they knew I was a push over by this point. So Sunday comes and we get up and get ready for church no problems so I'm thinking OK maybe they decided to be good...........I was so wrong they got worse when they got to church (don't think the chocolate doughnuts helped). So I was trying to corral up my children after church and can't seem to find them then when i did they wouldn't listen. I finally got them in the car ant told them they were NOT going to the party. We get home I'm still fuming but i decided that they could still go to the party well it was time to load up and someone left the doors open not one but 3 of them why they needed 3 doors to get out I have no idea but they did they were open for like 30 mins!!!!! I also have a problem with my car and something not shutting off when the car goes off so leaving the door open 10 mins will make it go dead...............I know it's a problem we NEED to get fixed but the mechanic says it can take days to find it & who can go without a car for days I sure can't. So the kids were so awful, disrespectful, and disobedient that they make it to where they couldn't go to the party. Well I figured I could put the charger on the battery and we'd show up late but I was wrong and I learned a lesson from God. Stick to my guns what I say goes no matter what and I should never give in to them just because. I always give in to the kids just to make them happy but intern I end up the one that isn't happy and in a bad mood because of whatever they did. The kids kept on acting up till Tuesday when daddy came home and they HAD to MIND. But then my dear hubby left out again Thursday but he took Kayla with him so I had to two that don't seem to get along. They fought and fought and drove me crazy!!! SO this whole week I had been in a bad mood only because I let my kids ruin my week . I really didn't enjoy my birthday either because I let my kids being obnoxious and my hubby not helping out with the kids more ruin it even when we went to dinner i thought maybe he would let Chasyn sit by him so I could enjoy the evening a little bit but I was sooooo wrong i dealt with the little Turkey all night. I just need to stop and realize that I need to be grateful with what I have even if my kids are rambunctious and don't mind at least i still have my kids. I can hold them and kiss them anytime I want to. I can tuck them in at night. I am grateful for my children but I take it for granted some times. Back in Feb my brother in law lost his little boy ,that was only 4 months older that Chasyn, He wishes he had just one more day with his little boy because he put his job before his kids and family so he never really seen them. The morning he went to wake up his little boy and take him to the store to get his normal Saturday morning sucker he had passed away in his sleep. The part that he regrets is he had been out of town that whole week before and when he came home that Friday night he was home in time to put his kids to bed and that was it. That was the last time he saw his son alive. He now stays in town and don't leave more than one night. I just need to be grateful my children are healthy and are able to drive me crazy because there are people put there that would give anything for just one more day with their children. Thank you Lord for giving me these 3 precious and beautiful children.

Photography is my Passion

So I haven't been on here a lot lately due to me trying to create & print up flyer's and business cards oh yeah also trying to get my web page just the way I want it. I hate that I haven't blogged much but I guess I haven't had the time. I took my kids out in our back yard and did a quick photo shoot of them which they turned out great!!! I'll post some pics later. The more pics I take the more I fall in love with photography. This past Saturday I took pics of our wonderful friends the Mooney's, it was a blast Christina. I want to post some pics but I'm going to leave that up to Christina to show the ones she likes. Hey Christina I would love to get Hanna and Mikayla together and take a few pics. I have to tell you guys my hubby has been so great at pushing me into doing this and letting me get out to do the photo shoots all by myself and if your like me you know how hard it is to get out of the house without ANY kids. He has been amazing through all this set up he has even been handing out business cards and putting up flyer's and doing all he can to help make this work for me. I have been thinking about something lately and was wondering if you oh so wonderful friends would help me make my mind up. Our church has started a building fund for our new church, I was thinking of a way to help raise money for the church I have two ideas and was wondering if you ladies would mind to put your two cents in. My first idea was to have shirts made up that said "I helped " on the front and on the back "build Cedarville AOG" and sell them all around town (just to let you know tee shirts are a big hit in this area) But then I had another Idea that is more me I thought maybe setting up a day to open the church for a photo session for any one and everyone to have pics taken and all the profit go to the church from both of them. The second idea really wasn't mine I remember when I was little our church doing this same thing to raise money and it seemed that the whole congregation came out to have pics taken. anyways I need to get off here and help with dinner.